My God is so BIG!

This past week has been hard, real hard. We reached the 2 month mark of our deployment, and for some reason I had a longing for my baby boy so deep that it just put me in a deep dark place. There are so many days that I literally do not know how I will make it through the day and how I can possibly bear a smile for my sweet babies. People ask me so many times how do I do it, how do I make it look so easy. The only conclusion I can gather is that I have a God, that loves me enough to take my on my pain, and carry me through this journey I'm on, all I have to do is cry out to him. And my oh my do I cry out to him... But Amy Grant said it so beautiful when she sang: "We pour out our miseries, God just hears a melody. Beautiful the mess we are, the honest cries of breaking hearts, are better than a hallelujah sometimes."

We were eating supper a few nights ago and my dear nephew said this, word for word!!
"Rii Rii, you know what??? MY God is SO big!" My heart nearly exploded in delight! A 3 year old gets it, but yet so many people don't. Yes, our God is so big, so strong and so mighty, there is nothing my God cannot do!!! He knows that song, and it is so true!!! God can take on the worries of this world just to make it easier on his people!!!

I admit, a year and a half ago, my walk with our Lord was not what it should have been... but through the loss of my baby, it brought me to my knees! I hate it took that horrible event to bring me back. This past year has brought me through the darkest of valley's and shown me there is light and a new day for those who just trust in our God.

God has shown me that when it seems that we cannot go any further, and that we are so broken that we feel the world should just end... he is still there, and to never give up hope. There is beauty in all things, we may not see it now, and we may never see the reasoning in some things... but there is peace in knowing that there is a bigger picture, and there is someone with a masterplan and he knows the best for us all!

While reading a bible study for military wives that a dear friend gave me I came across this scripture:

 ⁷ I will praise the Lord. He gives me good advice.
      Even at night my heart teaches me.
 ⁸ I know that the Lord is always with me.
      He is at my right hand.
      I will always be secure.
 ⁹ So my heart is glad. Joy is on my tongue.
      My body also will be secure.

Psalm 16:7-9

For some reason this scripture put the biggest smile on my heart. Because it goes along so well with where I am in my life. I do praise God, bc he has given me the BEST advice. I know he is always with me, I feel his presence daily... especially when I feel I cannot go on. My heart is glad and joy is in my heart because I know he is at my right hand. Days when I do not know if I will even be able to force a smile for my sweet children are the days that end in laughter and great pleasure, ther is no better explanation for any of it other than it is the work of my miraculous Father!

So tonight as I go to bed with all this on my heart I pray that everyone feels his presence when they may be in the dark times of their life, because it was then in my darkest hour that God took me by the hand and led me to see his mercies that he pours down on his followers daily!